Joyful Mayhem

Short & sweet today Laments: 1. I hate exercise 2. Daughter barely home & we're back to arguing over stupid things.  3. Awkward reminder as I picked up the youngest from a bday party, that as nice as those mom ladies were, they were never my friends. 4. Frikken technology that doesn't work.  Gratitudes: 1. I got to have coffee with Dina 2. Got in a good workout 3. I'm keeping up with the summer challenge 4. Watching Breaking Bad w/another son 5. Great weather today. It was pretty warm, but breezy.  Bonus: I had multiple opportunities to be bitchy & annoyed today,  but instead I chose to be gracious. What a great feeling!

Today was a bit rough. It ended up ok. Maybe I'll post the story. For tonight though...the 5 & 5. Laments 1. My mother is frustrating to me (I do acknowledge this is as much my annoyance level as anything) 2. My energy is lacking 3. I blew up and yelled like a 5 year old today 4. My heels & toes crack something fierce. no matter what! 5. My tailbone still gives me pain after oh so many years Gratitudes 1. I haven't given up on the workout Challenge 2. I apologized and my son graciously forgave my tantrum 3. Xanax 4. Fun with family geocaching 5. I got to watch Fargo

Going through patches of awfulness while parenting an adult child... Laments: 1. It feels like I will never have time alone again. For this introvert, not getting to recharge sucks royally. Now I have 2 graduated from High school and those college schedules are all over the board. 2. Summer will be mostly held hostage by the consequences of one "adult" child's actions. 3. Feeling pretty lonely lately.  One of my best friends moved far away. It's for all the right, wonderful reasons, to be close to her grandkids. But I miss her. I wasn't really letting myself feel it until she actually left.  Now I'm feeling it. A lot. 4. I had four other friends cancel on me with plans this week.  Just feeling dogged. 5. I'm still freaking fat! Gratitudes: 1. I and my family are healthy 2. As much as it sucks, we were diligent to save our tax return, and at least have the money to build a room for Son 1. 3. I washed the drapes in 2 rooms.  The house smells fres